XY.Haynes says he was posting the throwback image now to reclaim it and to stop feeling ashamed or embarrassed by it. A post shared by Colton Haynes (@coltonlhaynes) “I’ve never posted this picture before.

In fact, I spent a big part of my career trying to erase it from the internet while I was still in the closet,” he said.“Partly because so many ppl in Hollywood told me I would never work as an openly gay actor, but part of it was because I was incredibly ashamed.

It made me sad to see these pictures I had taken as a 15 yr. old model…before I was placed with voice & movement coaches to straighten me up for the cameras…before I learned to see my queerness as a liability.