As critics and audiences alike continue to moan over the Sex and the City spinoff And Just Like That, someone close to the production has spilled some major tea about the show’s leading lady.Author Candace Bushnell, whose sex and relationship column in The New York Observer inspired Sex and the City in all its iterations, spoke about the spinoff to the podcast Behind the Velvet Rope with David Yontef.

During the interview, she let slip that actress Sarah Jessica Parker–whose character, Carrie Bradshaw, is a thinly veiled version of Bushnell–had extreme reservations about doing the series.“SJP did not want to do it, right?

So after she shot the pilot, she did not want to do it. And I remember that vaguely,” Bushnell said. “And I think at one point they were saying that I should have played the part.